I know the world we live in doesn’t feel the same anymore.
Our feeds used to be filled with love, family, pets, milestones, laughter — all the good things that reminded us life could still be beautiful.
Now it’s anger. Hate. Division. And I can’t do it anymore. My heart is tired. My peace is hanging by a thread. I’ve been disappointed over and over by people I love — people I thought had compassion and moral values.
Because of this political chaos, I lost someone who meant the world to me. A dear friend. Someone who once confided in me about being hurt and scared in her relationship — and I defended her, supported her, as she had often supported me during hard times with my soon-to-be ex-husband when my kids were very young.
Then she married this man. Someone I would have never placed her with in a million years. Not by personally knowing him because I don't, let me make that abundantly clear -- but by seeing his memes that mock the LGBTQ community and big "beautiful" bill bullshit flaunted on fb, and what (appeared) to be a lack of anything at all in common. Even before Dump these 2 didn't seem right to me but i was willing to accept him. She accepted my loser of a husband way back when, and I can return favors.
Now I feel like this beautiful, talented, kind and liberal soul who was once my best friend has been brainwashed by a trumpet, and for all I know he 100% spoke for her and that wasn't even her *defending* him. She called it dyslexia. I can’t even unpack that logic. Dyslexia doesn’t make you lose your empathy. It doesn’t make you worship corruption or mock people in need.
It breaks my heart because she is brilliant, creative, and full of light — and now it’s like she’s disappeared into someone else’s bigoted shadow. My ex-husband (who was mentally deranged) used to try to make people believe it was me saying terrible things about them when it was him, to try and prevent me from having friends. It definitely happens. Way more often than you may think. Maybe this is that.
What actually occurred was, a while back her husband laughed at something I posted about child hunger. When I called him out, I was told I was the hateful one. He bragged about material things — cars, boats, whatever — giving all the credit to that idiot in office. She tried to shame me for talking about my past, for surviving hard years when I needed help to feed my kids because their father was a drug addicted loser. She said to stop "playing victim."
That’s not playing victim — that’s being human. And those years taught me compassion. They’re why I still care about people who struggle.
Since then, she’s been silent. We haven’t spoken in months. And honestly, that’s been hard. Because I still love her and see glimpses of the friend I used to know. She seems tired, sad, struggling, taking care of her dogs by herself, working too hard in a job she hates, most of all coming to terms with recent multiple tragedies that are not my business to share but one of them involves the loss of her own brother and i just want to see her and hug her but she's too far away and hates me now — all while he shows off and gives a fascist prick credit for everything he has. I can’t make sense of it anymore. He may have stopped, but I don't know. I blocked him from my page after he was so mean, not only bragging on himself but putting me down for the things I happen to have, like a scooter rather than a Harley, and saying I was "spewing hate." It was bizarre. There is a difference between spewing hate and reacting to hate. But these things can look similar I guess.
What I do know is that I can’t keep doing this to myself. Every time I open facebook, it’s another wave of outrage and hopelessness. Everyone’s angry, nothing changes, and the noise just keeps getting louder. My feed is filled with nothing but outrage over the next completely fucked up thing this atrocity in office has done followed by no action. He's destroying everything deliberately and no one is stopping him. Like a child who throws a tantrum just to see what happens. I am so sick to death of hearing how clearly illegal and wrong everything he's doing is when it's just being ignored, allowed, and not followed up by stating ANY AFFIRMATIVE ACTION BEING TAKEN AGAINST HIM. Where are those put in place to protect us from someone like this?
I’m sick of it. I’m sick of the lies, the corruption, the cruelty — and I’m sick of how it’s stealing our peace.
Why is this atrocity still in office? He rigged the election and that is openly stated. He's a grifter. He is openly gerrymandering. He is a racist and a misogynist. He is a pedophile and we all know it whether or not those goddamned Epstein files are released, which OF COURSE they won't be! He forced the Smithsonian to remove his IMPEACHMENT EXHIBIT AND LIE ABOUT IT. THE SMITHSONIAN! He forced them to erase history and change it to favor him. AND THEY DID IT.
Why is he getting away with dismantling our constitution, destroying our house, constantly deceiving the American people and threatening to run a third term now? This isn't about Democrats or Republicans anymore. I don't feel like the average Republican wanted this. This is sickness and he is an abomination. This is no longer about parties, this is about an orange sack of shit turning our beloved country into a circus. For his own entertainment. This is like a spoiled child's game to him and people who are supposed to be protecting us from it are bending their knees and kissing his orange ass. The very idea of this ballroom is so absurd i can't even force it to make sense.
He must wake up in the morning and decide how to troll the country that day while he's taking a shit, then he goes and plays golf. Or better yet, creates an AI video of himself taking a shit on us. The President. Of the United States. Posting an AI video. Of himself shitting on the American people. For protesting him! I think that's when it all finally broke me. Because that's when I realized this is all just some game to him. His stupid pursed asshole lips of a mouth and disgusting orange face is still there because no one has the balls to stop him. He is playing with our lives because he is bored and demented and he is paying people to stay quiet and let him do it.
Of course he's stupid. Of course he is wrong. Of course he is a bigot and a fascist. Of course everything he does goes against everything we have ever believed in as a country. He isn't proud to be the president; he wants to be worshiped as a king. If it wasn't America who let him do it he'd buy his way into some other country and destroy it trying to make them worship him. He has no morals, no conscience and no brain. I'm starting to wonder if it's him to blame or those who have let it happen without exterminating him. Not just those who stupidly voted for him. If he is clinically insane, which could possibly be the ONLY excuse for him, then his administration and congress and the supreme court and the governors and the enabling magats are to blame for sitting back and watching this petulant child destroy our freedom and way of life in exchange for billions of dollars, ballrooms, jets, tax exemptions and criminal pardons.
But here’s the thing: I still have good in my life. My family. Love. New life on the way in the form of a beloved granddaughter. A job I like. Enough to live comfortably and even help others. That’s what I’m choosing to focus on now.
This Thanksgiving, we’re helping serve meals at a shelter instead of just stuffing our faces — because little acts of kindness still matter. And that’s where healing starts — in the little things. In doing something kind, real, and human.
I’m also not unfriending anyone or leaving Facebook, but I am stepping back. My feed has become too heavy, too loud, too full of anger, too toxic. Even the pages that used to spread truth and solidarity now seem more interested in outrage and feeding off chaos rather than taking action.
That is the worst part of all of this: NO. ACTION.
And now that I've gotten this all out of my system....
I need to breathe. I need quiet. I need space from the noise. I need peace. So again, I am stepping back for now.
Because what’s left of my heart is worth protecting. ❤️
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